There hasn’t been much going on with the site lately, and there has been a lot going on lately, so I wanted to write this to let you all know what’s been going on, and to update you on recent events!
I announced this over Twitter near the start of the month but failed to make any mention here. I’ll be participating in a fantastic event in Montreal this weekend with several other lovely, fellow smut writers I’ve come to be acquainted with over the past couple years. For 12 hours, we’ll be furiously writing and posting some tasty smut for you to enjoy as we raise funds for the NNAF Abortion Funds, a grassroots organization building power to remove financial, logistical, cultural and political barriers to abortion access. So if you enjoy smut and feel that women’s health is an increasingly important issue, you’ll want to stick around for this!
The event begins this Saturday (9/28) from 9 am to 9 pm EST. But you can help us out right now by making a donation before the event begins. If you’re interested in participating, we can always use more writers, or you can help out simply by spreading the word to your friends, family, and everyone else you know over social media. No matter how much or how little you’re able to give, every bit is going to help and will go a long way towards the fight against limiting reproductive rights.
I’m already freaking out about this because, as of writing this, it’s only four days away! I’ve never had the chance to meet any of the people I’ll be seeing this weekend, nor do I really get much engagement with other writers, so I worry I’m going to end up looking a bit goofy in front of a lot of writers and bloggers I admire. But I’m looking forward to it nonetheless! If there’s anything you guys would like me to write about during Smutathon, or have any quick ideas for stories, feel free to share them in the comments below. I hope to hear from you during the event!
Other news, if you’ll indulge me
Daily life has gone through some major changes lately, and that’s forced me to readjust on a massive scale in such a short amount of time. After several years of not being able to do much because of the language barrier, I managed to find a job where I can get by speaking as much French as I do now. I’m happy I can finally get my life on track, and at least have a day job that still allows me a lot of time during the evening to write. However, it still asks me to adjust to the physical demands I haven’t had to deal with for several years, leaving me too exhausted to think, or even read, once I’m off work. I’ve had one book I’ve been working on for more than a month, and really want to finish so I can write a nice review.
While I expected to have plenty of time to write after work, the truth is that I’m often left very fatigued and nearly brain-dead. It’s been difficult enough trying to keep up with #FantasySmutFriday, much less to come up with ideas for new stories, new posts, or to even complete the WIPs I already have.
Imposter syndrome is still an ever-present problem I’ve been experiencing. It always seems to come up the hardest when I haven’t managed to write anything for some time. When it does it, it can feel like an extra weight that’s been placed on your shoulders, slowing you down and adding that extra challenge when you try to get back in. You constantly compare yourself to those who are doing so much more than you. Or, in my case, when you read articles by those you feel have far more experience, knowledge, and wisdom on their areas of expertise than you do. You begin to feel like an idiot-child in comparison to them, so I tell myself, ‘Might as well just shut up and let them do the talking.’
It won’t stop me from writing for the rest of my life, but the extra challenge does make the stretches where I don’t write become that much longer.